Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.
There is a controversial device called a body scanner now in use at airports across the U.S. and in a handful of other countries. The controversy has arisen over the invasive nature of the scan. It is the modern technological version of a strip search and it is administered to everybody prior to boarding a flight.
Obviously, many people think that revealing all to strangers is an invasion of their privacy. For others, they are more than willing to give up privacy for greater security against the threat of terrorists.
I suppose that in the future there will be a device that can read our minds. There are already machines in use that can interpret brain waves. The point here is that most of us are uncomfortable with technological advances and governmental edicts that rob us of our privacy.
Ironically, despite more attempts at poking into our business, studies indicate that most of us only have two people with whom we are willing to share our innermost thoughts and 25% of us have no one with whom to confide. As more attempts are made at finding out more about us we are seemingly less willing to share personal information.
That would be with the possible exception of the enormous popularity of Facebook and other social networking sites on the net. I suppose it does help some folks to share intimate details online like, “I just ate a tuna sandwich” or “I just discovered that sticking a jalapeno pepper up my nose can cause extreme pain.”
At the very heart of this concern over privacy is the matter of trust. You and I are only willing to share our innermost thoughts and the personal intricacies of our lives with those closest to us who have gained our trust. We just don’t trust anybody and everybody with our personal information.
In today’s focus scripture we see the account of a man who is, not only willing but, desirous of complete disclosure of his innermost thoughts and behavior. The one he had deemed worthy of this enormous trust was Almighty God. He says, “Search me, O God, and know my heart.” He was completely comfortable to share everything with God because he knew God wanted the best for him. He understood the Lord loved him, cared about him, and would use the disclosed information for his benefit.
Have you ever shared personal information with someone who ultimately used it against you? We enter into a trust relationship with the expectation that the information we share will not be used to harm us. That may well be why we are so unwilling to share intimate details of our hearts and minds because we have been burned by others when we took them into our confidence.
The good news is that God is not in the business of spreading gossip and rumors or using the intimate details of your life for His personal gain. In fact, anything you tell Him he already knows.
In Psalm 139, the writer is vitally aware of God’s intimate knowledge of his life. Notice that in verse 1 he says to God, “You know me.” Then in verse 2, “You perceive my thoughts.” “You are familiar with all my ways.” (v3) “Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely.” (v4) Moreover, the psalmist declares that God has always had intimate knowledge of him. “…You created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.”(v13) “…All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.”(v16) God knows everything there is to know about us, past — present, and — future.
Spiritual maturity goes beyond understanding that God knows everything about you. It is arriving at the place where you want God to see that you are sincerely striving to live for Him. You want him to “search” you, to “know” your heart, to “test” you, and to “know” your “anxious thoughts” so that there will be no “offensive way” in you. You want God to “lead” you in the “way everlasting.” You want every aspect of your life to be pleasing to God.
Without question you should be cautious as to who you permit into your circle of intimate trust. As a Christian, your closest and most trustworthy relationship should be with God. He will always love you even when some of what He sees is offensive to Him.
Rely on His perfect knowledge of you to give you the direction, wise counsel, and instruction that will keep your life headed in the “way everlasting.” He will never abuse or misuse the trust you have placed in Him. He will never steer you wrong.
What do you need to confide in Him today? What “anxious thoughts” are weighing heavily upon your heart? This is the one intimate relationship that will never fail.
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